last night before i even went to sleep myself i knew it was going to be a long sleepless night. the bean was coughing a lot and who can sleep through that? i sat jotting notes in my journal for a moment before turning out my light and i stumbled across an idea. even though i was not going to be well rested, even though there was going to be the possibility of feeling sorry for myself, i wanted to chose to enjoy the next day. i wanted to -instead of wishing for some kind of special attention from others – dedicate special appreciation to my daily life. i thought, who better to just love my life with than the two petite beings who love me unconditionally?
it was early when the night of “sleep” ended for us around here.
i haven’t been smiling all day.
but i do sense that i have the power to pull this off. i have the power to chose enJOYment. i have the power to be unconditionally happy. i have the power to immerse myself in the pleasure of loving my children. i have the power to celebrate my life by playing with the two little beings whose lives started within me.
it is heady stuff this kind of power. the power of plenty. the power of joy. the power of freedom to chose. the power to simply decide to take small steps into happiness and leave the rest of the emotional clutter behind.