i always think i have to push through the fear. or walk through it. or ignore it. or be stronger than it. or silence it.
that all sounds so battle-like.
what if i just sit with the fear?
what if i wasn’t so afraid of feeling the fear?
what if fear was all bad?
today i took a step that feels scary.
instead of wishing it away i think i want to try to be ok with it. to be ok with it feeling scary. to be comfortable with my afraid self.
i want to stay relaxed so that i can respond to my life instead of reacting.
and maybe i’ll do some knitting too.