i’ve been thinking
about ways to say yes.
about ways to find the joy of caring for a four plus and just two year old each day.
about what i want the future of my parenting to feel like and be.
i have been working with animals and their people.
i have been teaching people how to do the same work.
i have been working with my spirit guides.
i have been meeting people who inspire me.
i have been trying to trust my process.
i have been seeking ways to enter the flow.
i have been harvesting small pumpkins and cherry tomatoes and husking cherry tomatoes (pea calls them husk berries and devours them). i have been making dough to roll out into pizza crusts and topping them with the local farms bounty. corn, tomato, zucchini pizza with garlic and olive oil. mushroom, red onion, sage and goat cheese pizza. i have been eating cucumbers whole.
i have been teaching myself to run slower so that i feel good after three miles instead of near cooked. i have been willing myself to push the edges of physical pain, to enter the pain and see what it needs to release – tender touch, a rest, or hard work and then deep stretching. i have been amazed by the answers.
i have been living a life that rushes and tumbles and creeps all at once.
i just have been writing about it less.