as i have become interested in some of the things i learn about waldorf teaching philosophies i try to read books, forums, and message groups to learn more. often i can follow along well enough to feel like i am basically understanding what is being talking about – even if i am not grasping every detail – but occasionally i read a response written by one of the group administrators or forum moderators and i have to wonder, “was that english?” being new to any school of thinking, any tradition, any culture or set of norms (even if you speak the language) sometimes the way the words fit together can leave you feeling befuddled.
i recently tried to do a little work putting together a professional website for my self and i found the task so daunting. there were probably eight thousand reasons it felt impossible to me but one i remember clearly was that i was having so much trouble making decisions about who i should be writing too. should the language assume that someone looking for me to do work for them is already familiar with what a “spirit guide” is or a “journey” or should i start way at the beginning and spell it all out? i was leaning towards just using the language without any explanations until i recently re-experienced the feeling of trying to read things that made no sense to me. i think, to help the most people, it makes sense to speak in ways that even someone brand new to a set of ideas can understand. as a newbie in the waldorf world that is what i am always looking for.
victory has asked me several times to put up a post describing how i meditate on the children when i lay down at night. each time she asks i consider the possibility but it feels nonsensical to write because there is not much to say. i bring them to my mind and i ask for guidance of a sort. period. end of post.
but maybe what she is asking me to do is speak english. spell out how i meditate on something in basic language that anyone can understand. so i will try to break it down a bit here.
first of all, i believe in my spirit guides. so that is a basic assumption i make. the assumption that they are out there willing and able to help me with anything in my life. loving me and wanting the best for me and being connected to the divine and all knowing and full of good. you might believe in something else that is a basic assumption for you. perhaps you believe in god, or a god or a goddess, or you believe in angels, in your own guardian angel, or that a deceased family member or close friend is looking out for you, or you simply believe in mother earth and the spirits in the plants and animals that surround you here. i believe that when i need help and insight i have my spirit guides and power animals to turn to.
i also believe that all meditating, including meditating on, is born of and seeking that place of inner quiet.
with those basics shared i will say what i believe i do.
– lie down comfortably in bed when i am fully prepared to fall asleep.
– get myself to a place where i feel connected to the flow of the universe through seeking my inner quiet spot.
– connect with the feeling that spirit guides will help me.
– bring an image of my child to my mind.
– bring a question or wish to my mind.
– the previous three steps together are the equivalent of stating my intention which i think is key to this kind of work. if you are new to these kinds of practices and you feel unsure you might try literally thinking “it is my intention to meditate on _________ and receive information regarding ________.”
– actually, you might want to be even more clear by stating whose help you are asking for. “it is my intention to receive guidance from my guardian angel about how i might be more patient with my son tomorrow.” or “it is my intention to receive guidance from my child’s guardian angel and my own on a quality that i need to hold more carefully for my child tomorrow.” something like that.
– now i am laying there sleepy and snug in my bed and ready to doze off and i have brought my child’s image to mind and made my request. what happens? some nights i immediately receive something very clearly. an idea just pops right into my head and i know it is a good one. or i see an image of something we can do together. or i feel an emotion and i know i will bring that emotion to my interaction with my child the next day. other times i don’t feel anything right away and i let that be ok with me and i ask for information to come to me while i sleep if that is the way need to receive it.
– now i move on to my next child. the entire practice probably takes me less than five minutes per child most nights. occasionally i will get an influx of immediate information that will lead me to ask for more guidance and it goes on a bit longer. some nights i might have done both of my children in two minutes.
– i usually like to take notes when i am doing journeying and communication work because when i am in the zone, acting as an empty vessel, i sometimes forget things when i return to my normal waking state. but, when i am doing these kinds of meditations i am not taking notes. the idea is to do a very basic and straight forward exercise, one in which my brain is not involved so much as my heart is. and if my mind forgets what i received then it is no matter because my heart and spirit have taken it in.
i have written this up as a way to meditate on your children but you may use it to meditate on almost anything important in your life. i have at times taken up the practice to meditate on my spouse, on a friendship or other important relationship in my life. you could use it to meditate on a question related to your work outside the home, or to help you make a decision that you feel you are struggling with, or even on something simple like what foods your family needs to be eating at this time.
now, i hope that was english. that is, if you are english speaking. if not then i am of no use at all i am afraid…