back when i fist started this little blog my sister in law convinced me that it would be good to write a post about my habit of starting things and leaving them unfinished. one of the biggest things on that list is my masters degree in counseling psychology. after writing and publishing that post i put some time and effort into finishing that project and i have gotten myself so much closer. so close in fact, that i thought this weekend i would be in an intensive class that was the final credit i needed to finish this degree.
flash changed his travel dates for his china trip to be back in time for me to be in this class. my parents were on call to help out. the bean had been prepped that i would not be around for bedtime tonight and all in all i was starting to feel like it might be happening. really, i might finish and what a weight off that would be!
i have taken several classes at my university in the weekend intensive format and i have to tell you how little i like it. there is nothing less right for me then starting a class on friday night from 5pm – 9pm. blech. but i was geared up to go.
only around 11:35 this morning i realized there was a slight problem with my big plans. my class had started at 9am. flash was napping and he woke up to the sound of me moaning, “oh no!” it takes me about an hour to get to the campus so if i had tried to find a way to be ready to leave immediately i still would have arrived just in time for lunch break and thusly have missed half of the first day. i decided the smarter decision was to call the registrar office and see if i could be refunded the cost of the class.
they refunded me. they understood my confusion since this class was outside the standard format. they were very agreeable. i hung up with them and hung my head in shame.
how had i made such a huge mistake?! the kind of mistake that means i can’t finish my degree until april? and that i will have to be in class on the beans birthday? i could kick myself. i could cry. i could just roll in to a big stupid ball in the corner.
but, i am trying not to. everything happens for a reason. i guess i was meant to be home this weekend. to not yet finish my degree. to have this all finish some other time.
i am embarrassed and ashamed of myself. i am disappointed. but i am going to try to find ways to enjoy this mistake. to trust that everyone makes mistakes. to be nice to myself about it.
sigh. can you hear the pep talk i’ll be giving myself for the next six months or so?
happy friday. hope yours was huge mistake free.