do you feel abandoned? i do not mean to abandon you because, truly, i do love you. the problem is i am ashamed to love you. or i am not sure i should be so committed to you. because i don’t want to dare to think of myself as someone who “writes” when what i really do is ramble on on a blog. a blog! of all things.
instead, for the last few days, when i would have been writing. or blogging. is it a different thing? i have been online looking at things.
today it was waldorf doll kits. like this one. i do think the pea would like a doll like this and of course i will make one up for the bean as well if i go for it. but really, is there a reason i think that looking at doll kits is a more valid use of my time then blogging? writing. blogging. rambling on.
i have to tell you i am learning a lot about myself these days. and although i am totally down with all the learning i also wonder when i might just settle down or settle in or actually find a rhythm instead of reading about one or actually make a doll instead of looking at kits online. you know?
well dear blog, the baby is awake and i need to go ask the bean if he’d rather play outside or bake some cookies. and really, if those are our options, how terrible can i be?