i have spent the last 24 hours feeling crazed and stressed and overwhelmed…all as i get my little family of four ready for a cross country flight and an eight day vacation with my mom, dad, brother, sister in law and two nieces. i haven’t exactly kept my cool and i am nowhere near done. picking up on my tension chickpea didn’t nap well today and the bean isn’t eating. gotta love it. but it is all going to be worth it. not only for the vacation, for the beach, the ocean, the days of help with the kids, the promised date for flash’s big birthday, the views from our rented house – all that is going to be wonderful but the thing i am most excited about is the company. the company of my little family and my birth family and my brothers family all cozied up together for long enough to find a rhythm and some time for cooking, storytelling, joking, and eating.
i anticipate feeling much refreshed when i return. and i have to tell you, after the way the last few days have gone (and the things i have been reading on the internet) i can’t wait to surround myself with a handful of nice people who love me just because of my blood.
family. god bless ’em.