i have actually lost count but if i guess i think today was my 14th day shredding. or something close to that. the best thing about shredding is the way it makes me feel about myself. i don’t look very different, i don’t seem to be losing weight (although surely some fat has turned to muscle), but i feel stronger. not just physically, but all around. i feel like i can stand my ground a little better, i feel slightly more sure of myself, i feel a little taller.
maybe none of this shone through in my momentary dip yesterday which happened to occur at the time i was writing. i should confess, i have always found it easier to wax on about the down side of things when i am writing. it is much more difficult for me to language the shiny moments than the dark ones. maybe i am alone in that?
so today i have a little bit of a head cold (or allergies) and the bean does too. i really have not gotten as much done as i dream of. i am feeling a little out of it. and i have to say, it is a good day. shred and a shower is a nice way to start the day. hanging some stuff on the line to dry and remembering to bring it in before the thunder storm rain started falling was like a miracle. reconnected with an old friend for a short visit which was a nice reminder of me a million years ago.
all in all i think the shredding is good for me in ways much more complex than just toning muffy. it brings me into the present moment. it reconnects me with my body and gets me out of living solely in my head. it helps me to see myself as strong. strength is a lot of things and for me all of them are a good thing right now.
did i mention my slight head cold? i think it is surviving by eating my brain cells. so i’ll just stop writing and go read instead. if you got this far and you are willing to comment leave me a note about what your favorite blogs are? links appreciated. just wondering…