some time has passed since i have written here about my spirit or the practice of some woowoo. i am not sure why this blog shapes up the way it does. days of cooking and days of silliness and days of silence and days of reflection. i try not to worry about it and just let it take shape. i try to trust that the process is fine whichever way it takes me. i try to not think about what other people want too much and just do my thing.
this morning the pea was up early and so was the bean. everyone in the house seems to have the cold now. first the bean, then me, then flash, and now pea. we are all sniffling and crabbing about the house like some in need of repair old cars. snuffle bang shuffle.
because the pea was up so early and because she is sick her nap started early and so i am feeling totally off my rhythm for the day. but, being off my rhythm i found myself looking at some blogs early this morning. i went over to adventures in babywearing to see what was going on there and she had an interesting post about about stillness. in my early morning delirium i decided to leave a comment which probably made no sense to anyone but myself but so it goes. more to the point, it got me thinking.
i always argue that people get sick for a reason. i am not saying that the virus isn’t part of the reason, but which colds we succumb to and which we do not holds meaning to me. the physical body is telling us something. on a simple constant level when i get sick it tends to be because i want to be taken care of. and being me i am not good at asking for care unless i am sick. once i have a runny nose and a terrible sinus headache i am suddenly capable of saying to flash with a perfectly straight face, “can you come tuck me in?”
i think there might be other reasons we get sick too. some energy that is not serving us is getting broken off so we can send it on its way. our body creates a fever to burn through some work it needs to do. or there is a message we need to hear and we need to slow way down to hear it and so we get sick enough to slow down. being sick pulls us right into the present moment where we have our very own nose to blow and breathing to attend to.
hello spirit. i am sick and i wonder if the illness has come to me to remind me to reach more deeply inside myself. not inside my thinking self but inside my true self. my little piece of the divine self. the self that shines the most brilliant light on anything and everything. because for awhile here i have been feeling like a darkness is encroaching and like it might take me in. i am an old friend of the dark and i know it is a place one can visit and return from but if i had my say i’d like to shine a little light. i don’t want to get so dark i am lost. maybe the answer is to look for the little piece of light when i feel lost in the dark. seeking the light, not desperately but in the way like i know how to find it so the world is ok, that feels like good work to do.
i think there is more to this. i think i hear my spirit guides stirring, and purring, and knocking on my hearts door. i think it might be time to get my woowoo on. i’ll keep ya posted.