some recent thoughts on parenting

the other day i took a moment to read annie over at PhD in Parenting’s post in which she asked crib using parents to tell her what the transition to a bed was like for them and their child. she put the post up out of curiosity, not understanding how the child who needs [...]

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co sleeping with my bean

the last few nights the bean has been coming into the bed with me sometime between 11 and 1.  he arrives in the room silently and i only know to wake up and find him because i have heard his door opening on the monitor i still use with him.  i wake up slowly and [...]

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it is so dark out

at 4 am the other night chickpea was up to nurse and she had a lot of trouble settling back down.  she is cutting about three molars right now and that means a lot of nursing, tossing, turning, whining, and such.  around 5 am she was just nodding off, laying across my belly and latched [...]

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i think about it less

when the bean was little, and was my only child, i thought so much about how we were practicing attachment style parenting and how different it was from everyone we knew.  i worried about what people would think when we met them and i explained that he slept with us.  or what the reaction would [...]

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holding terribly still

this moment in time feels so familiar to me.  i have idea’s and plans and so much to do and instead of moving into the work i am on the couch in my pajama’s and i haven’t washed my face in days.  ok, not entirely true, today i washed my face and brushed my teeth [...]

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holding on

the bean has been a little sick this week which means neither of us are getting much sleep and i have to tell you it is catching up with me.  maybe i am hosting the virus too or something cause i feel like a basket case of a mama.  maybe it is that one night [...]

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sleep milestones

it is gray today and earlier it was raining.  i have started a few different posts but i am having so much trouble knowing what i feel like writing about.  i keep staring at the screen, at the cursor, and thinking, “is this over yet?”  i think this is one of those moments when it [...]

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where is the baby?!?

ever since the pea got sick she has been waking up a lot at night.  she used to sleep for a few hours in her crib when she first went to sleep and then after i went to bed when she woke i’d bring her to our bed for the rest of the night.  but [...]

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16. sleep balancing

chickpea asleep in jorinde while i cook
some kids are born as sleepers. these kids shock and amaze me. i was reading a note written by a non-sleep training friend of mine that said that her 7 month old daughter falls asleep laying down holding her husbands hand each night. my eyes practically [...]

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12. looking for my peace

well, my husband, flash, arrived down here yesterday. the bean was so excited to see him they just played and played. the chickpea did really well with him laughing and trying to eat his nose. joy. then darkness fell and nighttime parenting began. the plan was for dad to join [...]

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