i sit with Grandmother for a moment. we are in the forest by her fire which is small today, just a thin line of smoke rising from the embers of logs. she turns her face to me, “this is not where you are meant to be today. you know that. you must go back inside the body.”
i close my eyes and then i rise from my seat and turn to my large white friend who is waiting for me in the clearing. my unicorn. we walk towards each other. when we meet, i climb onto his back and he instantly takes flight. we start up into the sky and the next thing i know we have entered the body.
inside the body is warm is dark with blood coursing all around us. somehow there is space for us to travel between the bones and muscle and we make our way to the top of the head. i can hear Grandmother’s voice telling me “the light you need is in your hands.” i look down and find a ball of light is cupped in my right hand. it is light a giant marble emitting pure white light.
we fly through the body and i touch the ball of light to places that are dark black. my unicorn knows the way and knows where to slow so that i can reach out and light the spots. as each spot lights, a thin line forms between it and the other lit spots so we are leaving a trail behind us of balls of light all connected by thin lines. i am wondering to myself if we are lighting up tired glands, or acupuncture points? we pick up speed and we are flying through the body faster than i can think. i hold out the light and watch it spread and spread and hold fast in the spaces it is needed.
in my physical body i can feel the warmth spreading into the places that are lit. it starts in the crown of my head and slowly fills my face and neck. my chest and torso warm and then my right and left arms. some time is spent in my pelvis area, my hips and sacroiliac fill with warmth and lightness.
inside we are still flying fast and the points along the legs and feet are coming to light. then suddenly we are rising up through the body more slowly and landing on the heart. huge, pumping, wooshing, thumping heart. i press my ball of light into the heart and watch it spread until the heart itself is the source of light. a light that glows and spreads in a thin veil through the entire body and then outward into the universe. a bold pulsing energy of life.
my unicorn touches his nose to my face and is gone. i am growing and filling up the body once again with my self. when i am filling up my body i sit quietly and sense the strength that the light has brought. i wait with it until it feels real and only then do i fully return to this reality.
i open my eyes and look down to see the pea has fallen asleep on my breast while i nursed her and journeyed for my own healing. her eyes are soft and her body is limp and warm pressed up against me in the rocker. i am blessed.
How wonderful! You are so gifted!